Where the hell have I been?
Hi, I'm the MacMedic. Some of you might remember me as a paramedic and blogger from 2003 to 2008 or so. For the past few years I have been missing in action. Why? Well, that's an interesting question. Well, no, not really, it's probably only interesting to me but I'll tell you anyway. I went missing during 2008 for two reasons, one good and the other total crap. I'll leave it to the reader to decide which is which.
First reason, my job found out about my blog and demanded that I delete it, right now, while they watched, or I could pack my things and go home. At that point I had stopped running my own server and had about a years worth of entries on Wordpress.com. They're gone forever and I am sad because I had written some good stuff that meant a lot to me. My own stupidity, I guess, for not keeping a backup copy of everything. Suffice it to say that I won't be making that mistake again.
The second reason was that I was starting to write things primarily for my readers and not for myself. I was forgetting why I started to write in the first place and it was rapidly becoming something I did not enjoy. In the beginning I wrote to relieve my stress, keep some of my friends up to date on what I was doing, and to just exercise what stood in for my creativity. When I started writing to attract readers and keep them interested it started to feel like a chore and became stressful in and of itself. In short it wasn't making me happy.
The reality though, is that I missed it. I missed using my blog as an outlet for my stress and a way to express myself. I tried writing other stuff, short form fiction, non-fiction and the like but it never satisfied me like my blog did, like writing about my life as I saw it, being able to see where I had come from, and to a lesser degree, where I was going.
I need that outlet and finally, two days ago, I decided that it was time to try again. This weblog represents my attempt to come back to blogging. I had backups of all my entries in my old blog up until August of 2007 and I will be reposting them as time permits, a few at a time. Unfortunately the comments will most likely be lost which disappoints me to no end as I found a great deal of support from them. I hope that some of the friends that I made come back and start to read me again but I understand if they don't.
This site will be in flux over the several weeks as I repost almost 2000 entries and work to personalize the stylesheets and templates to what I want them to be. I'll be out on the web looking for some of my other blogging colleagues to put together a list of some of the quality weblogs that I read in the past and read currently.
I want this weblog to turn into something that I enjoy, something that helps me relieve my stress, and something that helps me keep in touch the reality that is my life. If others read it and get something useful from it thats great. If they don't, thats OK too
To quote my very first blog post:
That leads me right back to the original question, why am I doing this? I'm doing this because I need to put my thoughts down on paper, real or virtual, so I can look at them, mull them over, consider them, and make the best decisions I can. I need to tell the tale of my search for happiness and balance in my life. If others can glean some useful thoughts from my tale I am happy to tell it.
That is why I am doing this...again.
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